Tag Archives: overcoming fears

Fight with Peace

Standard

Ok so you’ve read the title and it seems bizzare….when we promote peace we usually don’t fight do we??!?!

I’m going to be open and honest in this post…I feel like someone out there needs to hear this.

Before having Gabriel I rarely battled with a yucky 5 letter word…WORRY. I was carefree and didn’t really have a worry in the world. See, I grew up in a wonderful Christian home and I don’t recall having to “fight” many battles at all…I had a pretty awesome childhood and not “sheltered” from reality but not going through any major trials of my own. I saw my dad go through many health trials but I hadn’t faced anything “super mega” challenging in my own life…well except if my tan wasn’t dark enough or my hair wasn’t life enough 🙂 I had not honestly seen the “real world” until moving out, getting married and moving away from my sweet little hometown. When you do those three things…you really grow up…fast. (Especially once having children). When my precious Gabriel was born, it’s like I birthed something else into my life…WORRY! At first, it was just “normal” stuff like checking on him a billion times in the middle of the night to make sure he was breathing (because he was a preemie he didn’t wake up screaming to nurse like Natalie does). I do know now with having two children that your basic “motherhood worries” are normal and ease up some after you enter about month 3 or so of babies life…but continue all throughout their lives with different seasons and new worries. (they don’t have to control you though) But…mine wasn’t easing up in my life. It actually grew and grew and grew into fear. I began to think up scenarios of things that “could happen” but most likely never ever would. I became so full of fear I felt paralyzed. I felt stuck. I felt alone. I have been a Christian for most of my life and had never experienced anything like this. I had NO clue you could worry over someone so tiny and small so much. The responsiblity of being a mother is tremendous because all of a sudden you are responsible for someone else’s precious life. My husband was so sweet and supportive during this trial…always praying and encouraging me.(Even though I was probably driving him crazy…I was driving myself crazy haha) I spoke with my Dad multiple times as well and he told me I’m going to have to overcome this battle with the PEACE of God.  It’s that very statement that got me thinking…you overcome trials and battles by fighting back with the peace of God. I began fighting each thought and scenario.  2 Corinthians 10:5 “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ”

This verse became my constant meditation. I had it written all over the house. I had it pop up as a reminder on my cell phone, I memorized it, I spoke it all throughout the day. See the enemy LOVES to get into your mind and fill it with junk. It becomes a battle…a constant one. A reoccurring one. I also began reading “Battlefield of the Mind” by Joyce Meyers…which is an incredible book for anyone to read. It helps you see that God is on our side and He is fighting for us all along…we just have to SUBMIT our minds and OPEN them to allow him to.

God doesn’t desire us to worry…actually fear=doubt. And this is the lesson that God taught me in all of this. I let the enemy STEAL my joy of a having my sweet Gabriel. I had LET FEAR IN. I had allowed my thoughts to run wild and far away from God’s word. I wasn’t keeping them in order or submitting them to Him. I was taking things into my own hands…and well we see where that got me..on my knees! See I am (with the Holy Spirit) the MASTER of my mind. I can either think on things of this world (doubt, fear, insecurities…) or I can think on things ABOVE (joy, peace, love, kindness, JESUS). Colossians 3:2 Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. The awesome thing about our Father is that HE is real. He doesn’t beat around the bush…He says it like it is…and I adore that! He desires us to be the same way with Him. He already knows the thoughts we are having…so speak them to Him and say something like this “Father, I don’t have time to think about this mess…I’m so fed up with the constant chain of thoughts…I’m tired of my life being ran by the what-if’s. I’m just honestly fed up with my mind..please Father take these thoughts away.” And you know what??? The thoughts don’t disappear like you’ve taken a “magic pill”. They are STILL there. It’s kind of like a war. Just because a solider is standing there…doesn’t make the enemy disappear….the soilder has to FIGHT him. Speaking your thoughts to God is step one of the battle. You are now allowing and asking God to fight them for you. Step two is consistently renewing your mind! It’s a multiple time a day event for me. It can be as simple as saying “God I give my thoughts to you…help me to honor you with each thought” A simple way that I began “retraining” my mind was speaking little things like this throughout the day… “Father I love you.” “Jesus give me peace” “Father I’m so thankful for You” “Father You are holy” “Jesus I know you are the beginning and the end” “God I know that no weapon formed against me shall prosper”…I would mix different thoughts of thankfulness and praise…and as I began thinking on those things, I didn’t have time to meditate on silly unrealistic worries. As I meditated on Christ…the worries started melting away. See, the battle was being won! (In my illustration of the war….the soilder was getting rid of the enemy one by one by fighting them) The victory was here. I with Christ on my side had WON my mind…my battle. We FOUGHT WITH PEACE..together!

My challenge for you today is to first, open your lives to allow our Father to fight the battle with and for you. Secondly, renew your mind daily! Take every thought captive and if it doesn’t line up with the Word of God…tell it to get OUT. I still every single day (sometimes multiple times) give my mind to Christ…because worry is a dirty little thing that tries to creep in over and over again. But now that I’ve won a big battle with Christ…the little “fusses” are much easier to overcome. I’ll leave you with this verse.

Philippians 4:6-7 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

xoxo,

Jess

Advertisements

Fear Not

Standard

Overcoming fears and insecurities seem like a constant battle with the flesh. There are so many things we can be fearful of. Circumstances vary for each individual- fear of death, fear of public speaking, fear of heights, fear of not being accepted, fear of rejection, fears of about anything you can imagine. The enemy LOVES to distract us with fear, insecurity and doubt. (John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal, kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.) The enemy is never looking out for our best interest…only God because God is love. (1 John 4:18 KJV There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.)

In July of 2010 my husband & I found out that we were expecting our first child. This was definitely a surprise but we were thrilled! We spent several weeks in excitement sharing the news and trying to come up with names for this child. A few weeks later something devastating happened…I lost this beautiful baby. At the time I became angry and unsure of why this circumstance happened. I felt robbed and an experienced emptiness that I could not bare. I mourned for days that turned into weeks and weeks that turned into months. I kept a lot of things hidden to myself & on the outside seemed all put together. I tried to let the light (God) mend and heal my wounds but could not overcome the situation that had happened to me. (John 1:5 The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.)

In March of 2011 I found out that I was pregnant again! Instead of feelings of excitement & joy…I was filled with fear & doubt. Because of my previous experience I was so afraid! We delayed in sharing the news we were pregnant because I was so fearful. A man at our church prophesied that 2 sons & a daughter were going to be born in our church.(This was before we had told anyone) This brought some peace to my mind. I experienced some bleeding a few weeks after that & was so scared I was losing the baby. A man came to me & said, “Jessica, I have two words for you… Fear Not”. This was so comforting to hear–I knew it was God! My husband & I had been praying for a strong, meaningful name for our baby (we just knew we were having a boy). My husband came to me one evening & said, “I know what we are supposed to name our child–Gabriel”. Me being pregnant & contrary at the time instantly said, “No, I don’t care for that” rejecting the name. I kept having the words “Fear Not” spoken over me throughout the pregnancy & was praying about a name for our son. I was reading the bible in Luke one evening & came across verse where Gabriel says to Mary, “Fear not”. When I read that verse a peace came over me…not only knowing we had finally chosen a name for our son but that everything was going to be ok. (John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.)

November 27, 2011 our strong warrior messenger of God, Gabriel Hayden Fox was born! He was born healthy & perfect!

Through my miscarriage followed by a healthy pregnancy, God has used me to help other women through similar circumstances. At the time I was confused & fearful but He always has a way of bringing the good out of bad situations. He also taught me to crucify my fears and trust in Him.

I challenge each of you to give your fears, insecurities & doubts to God. This will be a daily process! Wake up each morning & say God, I am Yours & You are Love & Love casts out our Fears! They are so distracting to the point you could miss out on your blessings and destiny. I could have stayed down & depressed about my loss but instead (eventually) gave it to God & allowed Him to mend me & use me to minister to others. It’s not always going to be easy letting go but so worth it! Let go & let God.

xoxo,

Jess